Sunday, March 30, 2008

Shadows

I'm trying to get a little out at a time in this blog and somewhat stay on a time line. Please forgive me as I venture away from my story and to current events.

I somewhat established in my last post that my daughter was sexually abused. She is 19 years old and having a rough time coping with life due to this. She is only a shadow of herself rite now. She drinks to mask the pain. Unfortunately that only works for a short time before the drinking unveils the pain more that it masks is.

I was awaken at 3:00 am this morning by her. She was almost hysterical. She was drunk. She was not yelling but she was shouting at the world. Expressing all of the hate. Crying that she is just a little girl. Regressing I think maybe. Going back to being that little girl who was being hurt. It seems to me that her subconscious is tyring to finally deal with this but her mind is not ready. I try to talk to her about medication but she refuses to take "crazy pills". I've explained to her that her mind and her body have undergone a great amount of stress and that reeks havoc on the brain. The pills will just help like an antibiotic for the flu.
I'm lost...........How do I help bring her back out of the shadows.

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