Dad And BF

Not too much has changed. The BF still thought everything was okay. I went with him yesterday to his parents lake house. As we were leaving I told him I hadn't been to the bank yet and ask if he would buy me cigarettes as I was out of cash. He acted like it was going to kill him. Truthfully that is too much of an inconvenience for him. I just told him to stop at the tobacco store and I would write a check there for them and buy my own and he did. What an ass.
Has a long talk about it. Ask him if he were ever going to ever put any needs in my life before his "wants". His answer, " I can try." Again What an ass!!

I haven't talked much about other issues in my life. My dad is very sick. He is the closest person in life to me. They can't seem to determine what is wrong with him. He was diagnosed with Polymyalgia reumitica but the medicine that was suppose to make him feel better in 2 time isn't working and it has been about a month and a half. The have already doubled it once and it still didn't do any better. I worry. It is like watching my grandmother last year and she died in October. I try not to think of it that way and just tell myself he is fine and when they figure out what it is they will make him better. I pray for the best. But I can't stand to see him suffer.

Well enough for now...........time for bed.