Thursday, May 8, 2008

The Perfect Package


With Mothers Day just around the corner my children have ask me what I want.
I would like to have told them that I want a new boyfriend. One wrapped in a perfect box, in perfect paper with a perfect bow. And I want whats inside to be just as perfect as the package.
This leads me to the question "What do I think a perfect man is?"
Lets see............

1. He needs to have a job and have had the same one for at least 10 years (stability)
2. He needs to have already had kids. ( I'm not having anymore)
3. He needs to be able and enjoy socializing with others.
4. Also enjoy time alone with me.
5. I would like someone who puts my needs before his as I would do the same for him.
6. Ambitious (not just in career but at home too).
7. I like touchy feely, someone who is not afraid to express his love.
8. He knows how to laugh and make me laugh.
9. Someone who is secure with himself and doesn't get mad when I speak to another male.
10. At least 38 years old.

I guess that's a start. Can I get all of that in one package?

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Inside out and upside down

Two weeks later and the boyfriend still sucks. Haven't talked to him in a week. To explain a little further he is lazy and borring. He doesn't mean to be. I just don't think he knows how to enjoy life. He doesn't know how to care about anyone else beyond what is convenient for him. You can't feel joy if there is noone to feel it with. I am the only person he really sees. How healthy is that. I mean he sees people at work but other than that its just me and usually thats just to lay on my couch and keep me from getting anything done. I'm tired so tired. I love him, atleast I love the him that I fell in love with 8 years ago but the further I get into this I don't think that person ever existed. Its like it was all just a put on to make me fall in love. He forgot to "be" the person who only socialized via internet gaming. Really what is that? Its a group of anti social people who have self esteems so low that the only way they can communicate is when they can't be seen. Someone please explain?